Emily Louise

I can honestly say I don't know where to start.  It's hard to try to explain yourself to people when you don't truly know yourself. I mean- I'm seventeen. Eighteen on July 10th. And I don't like birthdays. I find them the loneliest time of the year because of expectations. But besides that, I am about 5 ft 6", blue eyes and blonde-ish hair that does what it wishes. It's been a rough couple of years, but I'm trying different tactics. Tactics that I will be exploring with all of you. Or however many of you there are. (There may be none, and that's okay.) I like writing. No, understatement. I am passionate about writing. Short stories, fiction, journals, diaries. Anything. Just like I have a passion for art and poetry. Which I'd love to share here. My middle name is Louise. French. En francais. I used to hate it when my parents called me Emily Louise, but my thoughts on it changed drastically a little while back when someone told me it was beautiful.
That's another thing. 
Compliments. I don't get them too often, but gosh. When I do, I never forget them. 
Which is bad. Because I never forget things that bring me down, too. 
I've always had 1-3 close friends. My friends- like my brother, are my rock. They kind of keep my head on my shoulders, even when I'm falling into an abyss. They're the kindest, loveliest people I have ever known, and (I know people say this all the time and it's extremely, extremely cheesy, but. eh.) I am such a lucky person to have met them and be so close to them. 
My parents are divorced. And have been since I was six, so don't go all sympathetic on me, trust me. I've heard enough apologies from therapists and strangers throughout the years. 
My mom is the most stubborn, obtuse person you could know that brings most topics back to herself. But she is also kind, thoughtful, and tries harder than anyone. She has long thick black hair, and is quite tanned.  She is one of the most beautiful people I know. 
I'm pale with blonde hair. You can see why I have believed I'm adopted so many times throughout my life. 
And I would believe that, if I didn't have her eye colour. She has the most emerald blue eyes with flecks of orange. And she's named after one of the best characters. Wendy. You know... from Peter Pan. And crap, I may have been a smidge lucky there too.  
I'm not actually lucky, so I'm just going to state what I feel I am a bit blessed with. I'm not christian. I just use words like blessed. I'm not atheist either. I'm spiritual. I believe in an unknown connection that binds everyone together like a silver chord. 
Onto my dad, he's like me. But with dark brown hair and green/hazely eyes. He likes to read, play guitar and work with computers. He likes to be on his own, but knows when we should hang out. Honestly, I don't know what to add to him. He's my dad.  
I live with my dad now. I used to live with both of them, but my mom moved to Airdrey and well. I couldn't go with her. 
School is crap. But in a month or so when I graduate... I'm going to miss all the people I've grown close with this year. I can't see myself without them, but I'm so happy to see them finding out what they want to do.  
My brother. He shares the same beliefs as me, and he is a wild spirit. He likes swords and sushi and meditation. He has such amazing restraint and focus. He loves video games, and he's creating one with a large group of his friends. He's an amazing listener and gives great tips on coping with situations. He's been here. Maybe not always, but in the past four-ish years we've been like a knot. Unable to be separated. 
All in all, 
I love stargazing.
And sunsets.
And reading until the book is finished.
And finding new music.
And playing musical instruments.
Especially guitar.
And Piano.
I watch too many youtube videos.
And I watch netflix too much. 
By too much I literally mean 24/7.
I drink so much tea. 
And I have difficulties sleeping. 
I also have difficulties with my mood. 
A lot actually.
I have an aquarium with angel fish. (Her name is Luce)
I spend a lot of time alone.
But when I spend time with others I make the most of it.
I love to create art.
Like drawing.
Painting.
Charcoal.
Stories.
Music. 
I like to think I'm healthy.
My parents get upset with what I don't eat.
Like beef, pork, chicken.
But I have seafood.
Like sushi. 

I don't know what else to say right now, but if I think of anything, i'll add it. 
Have a good evening, or day.
-Em.